In the midst of this busy life, I'm not sure writing is even a good idea. My brain feels frazzled, and I don't know if my thoughts can even come out straight. But this is what's been going on...
1. Sick children.
First the flu, then a nasty cough. We've been quarantined the last little while - not with adults as much, but with little babies and children.
Along with that comes lots of up and down times at night. I think their sleeping patterns are getting better, but for the last little while I've been getting up 5+ times at night. That may not sound like much, but having sleep interrupted like that for many, many nights in a row takes a toll on a normal woman. It sure does on me.
Feeling a little tired because of that, and a little lonely because of being quarantined, but it's not anybody's fault. In time, we'll be up and about again.
2. A crashed computer. We knew our ten-year old laptop had seen better days, but over a week ago it suddenly died without warning. For a couple of days I lived in great paranoia that some of my pictures were forever gone. I had backed some up, or rather, BEN had backed them up for me, but not since about 6 months ago. I was getting devastated feelings already. I MUST learn to back up regularly!!
Well, $230 dollars poorer, we have our pictures retrieved. One day after painting, I walked into Smiley Technology (seriously, who would call their computer shop by that name??), and tried not to choke on the wave of cigarette smoke that hit me. I explained the crashed computer situation, and asked if they could look at the computer and try to retrieve any pictures and documents for me.
"You mean you want data recovery?" asked the secretary.
Um, yeah, THAT. Data recovery. Sounds much better. Much "techy-er" - something I'm not.
But we understood each other. And now I really love Smiley Technology, because I got a phone call two days later that my pictures and documents data has been successfully recovered. I still have to pick it up, but hey, they can name themselves anything they like, if they are able to save my pictures!
Just a day before the computer crashed, we had ordered a new computer via amazon. It took a bit for the computer to arrive, and then to install all the necessary programs. All said, we were computer-less and internet-less for over a week. After the initial thing of holding my breath, waiting on the data retrieval, the technology-gone week was actually kind of nice for a change. But only for a week!!
Also on the blink has been my cell phone. I can't talk to anyone except on speakerphone. And the speakerphone has only one volume - LOUD. So loud that the whole phone vibrates when someone is talking to me, and it literally makes my ears hurt. So, hardly any phone conversations these days. I think I need to check into a new cell phone as well...
3. Most time-consuming thing now has been the new old house.
Ben has been working on it almost full-time since the middle of February, and we've still got a month of work before we move in.
I SO READY to move there.
Well, maybe not quite yet.
"There aren't any beds there." as Zoe says.
Nope, there aren't.
And there are lots of other things that aren't there either.
What IS there right now is lots of
wood
dust
and
work.
It'll be a sweet house when it's completed.
It's just getting to the completed part.
[dreaming about front porches...]
And it's coming.
Slowly.
But it's coming.
This past week I started with the painting. That was SO EXCITING for me. As exciting as it could get with two kids two and under there in the dirt and mess with me. But this is the first that I feel like I can really help and be involved.
[first strokes of paint! I'm excited! And looking as winter-white as the drywall behind me]
We thought we were going to hire out the painting. I just didn't know how I was going to do it with two little kids. But I LOVE to paint, and I told Ben that I would like to attempt the job. Even if I'm not able to do the entire project, and just do 2/3 of the house, that's still going to be saving big-time for us on the money end of things.
So, I started.
Playpen in one hand, paint brush in the other, and walked in the door. Zoe had a little bucket and shovel that she brought to play in a dirt pile outside. The kids really did amazingly well. Some days we only stay a little bit. Other days we stay longer. I try to be sensitive to them, because this is a long process for them too, and a wise friend said to really listen to my kids as far as how much I can do each day. So I've been trying to do that. And trying not to get frustrated when I SO BADLY want to keep
filling nail holes,
scraping,
caulking,
priming,
painting.
I can be so project-oriented that I can miss people. And I so badly don't want to miss my kids through all this. They are far more important than banging stuff out at the house, and I want to remember that. Remember that in my heart, to where I don't get frustrated when they're done after only 2 hours of working at the house. To where I kiss them anyway and still laugh with them, instead of becoming impatient and frustrated that my goals aren't being accomplished at the house.
[A little Leah that's at the end of her day]
Saturday, my mother in law gave me a very happy surprise by dropping by the house, picking up the girls, and taking them home with her for the afternoon and evening. Did Ben and I ever tear around that day. So fun. More filling nail holes, sanding, priming, and - yay- first REAL coat of paint on two bathroom walls! Exciting!
[lunchtime]
And Monday, a VERY sweet lady surprised the socks of me by coming in to the mess and dirt with a vente Starbucks white mocha with caramel in her hand for me! For those of you that don't know this area, the closest Starbucks is an HOUR away. Yes, that lady is VERY sweet. That cup of coffee was oh-so-treasured!
And old house just has so. much. work. I used to think that old construction was easier than new, but now I'm not so sure. There is an unending amount of sanding to do. And scraping. I detest scraping.
But the end result will be so fun. I know it. And that keeps me going.
[THIS is what one of the fireplace mantels looks like.]
[THIS is sort of what I'm wanting it to look like. But it will literally take me a whole day to sand it like that]
Even if I fall into bed each night completely exhausted.
Even if I feel like I hardly have a life because my cell phone hardly works and I can't talk to my friends right now.
Even if it feels like we hardly have a life besides working on the house (I don't like that part).
[kitchen. this is probably what needs the most amount of work yet]
I'm glad for a Sunday. Where we can rest before plunging into another busy week...
[the old-fashioned door bell ringer thing that you turn]
This is exhausting work. Sheer exhaustion. And somehow exhilarating. Strange how it can be both.
[Beams Ben installed in the living room and dining room.]
[one of the cool old doors]
[fireplace in the living room dilemna: do we cover up the asymmetrical brick? Is it going to drive me crazy if we leave it?]
[the bottom of the same fireplace: WHAT TO DO with the blue brick against the gorgeous antique brick in the back? It's not the same kind of brick. Paint it? Different mantel?]
Meanwhile, I score hundreds of magazines to try to pull together all my favorites...
And then try to arrange them into about 20 different files to keep them organized. I feel like I'm bursting with ideas at this point. The only difficulty will be implementing them in a two-bedroom cottage!
Sometime I'll have time to explain a bit more about the house that we are now calling ours, with its high ceiling and hundred years of history.
And about how this is the 3rd house that we're going to live in since we're married, and how I didn't see any of the 3 before we bought/rented them...
That'll be another time. This will give you a little glimpse until then!
Wish me lots of energy, please!!!
~clarita
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