August 25, 2005

• I’m just loving life. God has blessed me with a wonderful husband, wonderful friends, wonderful family… Why me? I feel so unworthy. Sunday nite was so refreshing – Ben’s brother Chris, friends Ron, Liz, Leathermans, my sweet sisters, the Huyards, all came over. My soul was encouraged in the sincerity of those people.

  
  

  I walked around Lancaster city yesterday, smiling as I drank in the fresh air and met my neighbors. It felt like an autumn day, and my heart was drawn to God through the beauty of the day.

  
  

  Been praying for opportunities to witness for my Jesus. Lately it seems like I don’t even have opportunities, but I wonder if it’s because I’m not watching for them, I’m not even thinking about them. Telling people about my Savior strengthens me, even though sometimes I feel awkward doing it, it’s out of my comfort zone. I’m not ashamed of my husband, or my friends here on earth – why am I ashamed with identify with my Best Friend of all? May God purify my heart. Seems like there would be all kinds of opportunities in the city, but I’m surprised at the unspoken privacy code of the people that live there.

  
  

  We brought a piano over to our little house. I didn’t realize how much I had missed playing/singing. There is something in me that just comes alive with  music and drama like I can’t explain. I wish I had 7 lives – where I could pursue all the dreams that lie within me. Sometimes it’s hard being a dreamer - there’s always a restlessness, wanting to pursue another dream, work toward another goal.

  
  

  Came across a verse in Romans 14: “Whatever is done without a firm conviction of it’s approval by God is sin.” Wow, may God alone be my foundation of living.

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